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Slept at 6.25am and was awaken at 07:42am by a dreadful sadistic dream.. Here's my dream: I was walking and saw this boy who drives a mini-small car dangerously. Suddenly i was in a left driver type of taxi where taxi-driver was on the left and Winnie was on the right and me was at the back. I felt that i was a restless sprit still stuck in earth at that time. The driver got so scared and shivering when he saw me through the rear mirror. He even ask Winnie if she saw me and she replied no. Saddens me a bit though. After Winnie gets home,i was at a kopitiam where i was eating something which unseen of.. Looks like Thai's food. As i ate, the guy in front of me, was awe and shock when he saw the food disappearing one by one. *Frankly, who was the food meant for!?* Then i was walking underneath a blk when i realised Winnie can see me. I was crying at that time feeling so sad that im dead, unable to marry her and unable to provide my mum with kids for her to play. *What the hell!?* However that really was my target though coz i know that she was hoping for a grandchild to play with... I tried to hide somewhere behind the pillar sobbing hiding from Winnie. Guess Winnie heard my sobbing and found me crying hard. Very badly. My water pipes was rushing hard bursting through my eyes. She approaches and asked what's wrong. However im too sad that i couldn't say the reasons. As i spoke few words, my sobbing gets worse. She cried upon watching me cry despite advising me not too.." As i was crying damn hard, my eyes opened and found my pillow was already soaked with tears. I was still crying and sobbing. I went to my mum, however my feelings were still unstable and sensitive therefore i only managed to tell her a bit of the story. I was still wondering on the meaning of the dream. "Does it have any connection to the nisfu syaaban?" "Does it have any meanings?" "Related to the prayers made y'day?" Anyway, i wanna say sorry to everyone that i have offended, hurt or upset in the past. Just wanna say it in case didn't get a chance to celebrate raya.. LOL... We dun live forever.. We dun even know our future.. Let time pass by and hopefully we will led to the correct destination.. Oh my.. I ought to be heading to clinic now. MC...
 
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